Bullet journals : 7 Mac dari belakang

*Disklemer : Manglish dikesan. Jika meluat mohon hentikan bacaan


· Ahad 25 Mac : Bagaimana hari keluarga kami?

Setiap Ahad adalah hari istimewa bagi keluarga kami. Tradisi yang dimulakan oleh Pak cik Brahim yang sangat rajin pergi ke kuliah Dhuha meskipun baru pulang dari shif malamnya. Kami anak beranak pada mulanya memberi seribu alasan untuk tidak pergi bersama. Malas. Namun kerana ketekunan pak Berahim yang tidak pernah memaksa dan istiqomah dalam mengajak kami akhirnya membuahkan hasil. Cuma di pihak perempuan, saya dan mak berpakat akan mengheret bapa ke shopping mall selepas kuliah. Bapak senyum. Barangkali kesudian kami pergi menuntut ilmu bersamanya lebih beharga dari duit dan tenaga yang dikerah di shopping mall. Pak cik Berahim tidak pernah berasa rehatnya kurang dengan ibadah yang dia lakukan. Petang itu sekitar pukul 2 lebih , dia akan pergi pula ke shif over-time dia.


· Isnin 26 Mac : Balik Shah Alam dan berkelah di dalam kereta

Isnin adalah hari akademik yang paling sibuk dalam jadual saya. Announcement yang paling ditunggu untuk harini pastilah sebuah text wassap di group yang mengatakan kelas kami kansel. Hampeh. Tinggal harapan je la tu. Kecuali suatu kelas yang pensyarahnya bercuti, 4 kelas lain on seperti biasa dengan jayanya. Usai kelas kami meluangkan masa untuk sesi bonding time sesame gegurl. Meskipun langit dah bagi signal “ Hujan Nak Turun” Kami masih berdegil melangkah ke Warung Cendol di bahu jalan untuk menikmati produk baru pak cik cendol “Ais Kepal Milo” yang sedang trending dan murah di situ. Sebaik saja ais kepal itu siap , turunlah hujan dengan tenangnya. Akhirnya , perkelahan kami bertukar pangkalan di kereta Hilux , kenderaan salah seorang dari rakan kami. HILUX tu kelas tau. Cuma sebab parking tak banyak kat kawasan sini, kami kena relocate beberapa kali sebab orang lain sangat annoying dengan keta besar yang double park diorang. Haha.


· Selasa 27 Mac : Food hunting. Dari Jibril ke Family mart

Saya sumpah tak pernah masuk bar. Haha. Tapi harini salah seorang rakan kami teringin nak makan butter chicken jadi harini amanlah kami dari perang “ Makan kat mana?” di mana soalan tu adalah soalan paling susah kat dunia bila duduk shah Alam ni. Kat Restoran Jibril ni la kami cari butter chicken di mana itulah menu special diorang. Konsep Jibril ni ala-ala bar tapi tak jual arak la, dia jual nasik. Kalau tengok depan kedai dia tak macam kedai makan pon , macam gerai jual eskrem je. Tapi kat SS15, Subang Jaya ni takde orang yang bukak kedai untuk jual eskrem je. Sebab kawasan ni macam hub jugala bagi segala restoran retro dan hipster. Masuk je ke dalam restoran ni memang gelap semacam bar. Movie pon dia pasang Charlie Chaplin je. Kitorang ni sampai kena bukak flash henpon sebab nak baca menu dia. Tapi so far ok la. Sedap. Saya beri 4 bintang 1 kurang. Kurang sebab cepat muak.
Balik tu kami singgah di My Family Mart. Dia ala2 seven eleven Malaysia la tapi yang ni Jepun punya. Yang paling best kat sini adalah makanan ringan dia macam aiskrim dan “lok cheng” dia. Dah la murah, rasanya sangat rich dan asli pulak eskrem dia. Sapa nak buat franchises dekat dengan seksyen 13 ni boleh bukak family mart ni, gerenti laku keras punya.


· Rabu 28 March : Fare well Jasmine .

Di department alat tulis Aeon ade sekuntum bunga yang manis bernama Jasmine. Seperti namanya , kulitnya juga putih seperti bunga melur sehingga digelar Jepun oleh rakan sekerja. Dan harini adalah hari terakhir gadis celup Jepun ni bertugas kat sini. Dia nak balik kerja kat Perak pulak jadi akauntan. 6 bulan dengan dia cukup untuk buat saya rasa dia adalah adik yang istimewa di mata saya. Ewahh…berjiwang pula. Sehelai scarf dan lipstick pemberian dia buat saya rasa istimewa sebagai wanita. Haha..berjiwang lagi. Ahaha.. Farewell Jasmine , Selamat maju jaya, Kampung awak tu dekat dengan kampong akak juga. Nanti raya kita roger2.


· Khamis 29 Mac : Hari patahkan semua.

Pencapaian pada harini adalah mematahkan dua pasang sandal wedges (kasut yang sole dia tinggi tu) dan berjalan dua kaliganda kilometre ke msu sebab nak tukar kasut. Satu pagi masa nak pergi kelas dan kedua masa nak pergi talk Dr Fatimah Syarha malam tu.
Talk tu sangat meaningful sebab dia banyak remind dengan tanggungjawab khalifah dan kepentingan menjaga institusi kekeluargaan. Nasihat utama dia haritu adalah “ Cuba Berlumba dengan Ayam”.

· Jumaat 30 Mac : 14 Rejab dan cubaan berlumba dengan ayam.

Malam sebelumnya saya cuba untuk tidur awal dari biasa kerana esoknya saya cuba untuk bangun lebih awal dari ayam. Namun kerana tiada perbezaan signifikan antara waktu tidur saya dan sebelumnya ( sejam je beza) saya masih bangun pada jam kitaran saya. Cuba bezanya saya tidak tidur balik selepas solat subuh. Pagi jumaat ni special tau kalau kita bangun dengan cubaan mendekati Allah. Ia buat kita rasa syahdu je dan semangat sikit nak buat tugas harian dan ibadah. Sesekali saya teringat dengan seorang cekgu yang saya kenal. Saya rasa dia selalu tidur lambat walaupun kena pergi awal ke sekolah. Saya doakan dia sihat je. Jangan stress dan dapat rehat yang cukup.


· Sabtu 31 Mac : Hari biasa seorang part-time.

Kerja okay, tak penat pon. Saya selalu cakap macam ni kat orang, bila masuk department alat tulis di sini rasa macam naik pangkat pula. Dulu kerja lipat kain di mana memanjang sibuk dan balik kepenatan. Di tempat baru 180 darjah lain. Sampai saya wonder, berkat ke kerja saya ni kalau banyak sangat masa lapang ? Kalau tak berkat tu bahaya. Fuh,,,astaghfirullahalazim. Kena banyak hati2 dengan masa. Itulah ujian kerja baru saya.

Harini rezeki saya dapat hadiah pendrrive. Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat.

7 hari dalam bullet journal saya mengakhiri rekod bulan Mac. Sekian laporan dari saya.

Yang Benar,

Penulis 4 bintang 1 kurang.

Study journey :Second trip to Bursa

Assalamualaikum and hi, hi…

A photo of my first trip to bursa for learning about LEAP market.

It has been awhile since the last trip to that place.  Being investment student, this is the must-to-go-to place for us. And today, here we are, to learn more about financial derivative market.  I will treat you several photo. 

 I am just going to show you the only difference from previous photo.

. Yes… the heels. It was my first time wearing it. Although it’s just kitten heels, the feel of wearing it is amusing. I was neither happy nor sad, it’s just uncomfortable.  But it’s still bearable. In case you don’t know, let me tell you something, a pair of heels is a part of proper corporate attire.  

Financial derivative is all about future market. For those who want to know more, the future market was more profitable than regular stock market. Predicting and knowing when to enter and exit is essential so mastering the technical analysis was extremely important skills. The technique highlighted today was Japanese candlestick. I bet it was the most common chart used in Malaysia.

The speaker at that day was Mr Azuri from Maybaank investment bank

The irony of being investment student in my university, we have never been taught properly about mastering the technical skills such as reading the chart and predicting the movement. Most of us learn through reading and seminar like this while some of us learning it through Forex trading. I don’t recommend involving in FOREX though.

In my point of view, learning and practicing the candlestick chart was the total different thing. It was not as easy as it seems.

My diary supposed will be extremely long text book if I am going to brief you more about the so-called "technical analysis" so for now,  I am going to stop. 

Your truly , 

-Miss Bullfighter-
(since selca was too mainstream)

Usrah diaries : Reflecting on the chronicle of Musa.

Hi Assalamualaikum,

Despite of my abundance assignment I will share about my usrah today. As we have new member in our family, we hold simple taaruf for each other. Just usual thing like sharing our personal details and bla..bla…

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Today we getting at page 584 at surah An Naziat from 15 to 46.  We just do some reflection today instead of studying the ayah technically.

The theme is how Allah try to entertain our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w through the true story of Musa.

From my perspective , if I put myself in Musa shoes, I do understand a bit how complicated his feeling when Allah tasked him to go and preach Firaun .

Just imagine,

Musa have been living with Firaun during his whole life before he escapes from his castle. No matter how cruel and hard Firaun to others, he was someone who raise him till he adult and somehow a father figure to Musa. Being Musa, no matter how hard he was being treated I felt Musa might still have feel indebted and has tiny bit love for Firaun.

When Allah asked him to return and somehow try to correct the “father” who raise him before,  I am sure his dilemma must be great.

Let me highlight one fact, did you realize correcting someone who close to you is harder than correcting someone who distant? Especially the person who you need to correct is someone you indebted to.

But in this situation, it was serious situation since what  Firaun was done was an incredible wrongdoing. His ultimate crime was denying the God and claims to be the God. He is technically against the heaven.

Only Allah deserves to be arrogant. I was actually impress Allah still gave chance to Firaun by asking Musa to correct him. In fact, in another verse in Al Quran , Allah actually ask Musa to advice Firaun politely. Even someone cruel and incredibly bad like Firaun deserves his Mercy, why we who a bit better than Firaun must give up in seeking his Mercy?

Then Allah has compared the creation of human with his other creation like sky and earth which more impressive than human being. Sky was technically a biggg roof without pillars while Earth was a broad mats he create supporting lifebeing. As a human, we living on earth while being covered by sky.

Sky and Earth was always there even without human being while we are not. We can’t live without it.

We are then moved to the dua.

My Lord, make me an establisher of prayer, and [many] from my descendants. Our Lord, and accept my supplication. (40) Our Lord, forgive me and my parents and the believers the Day the account is established. (41) 

-Surah IBRAHIM 14: 40-41 -

If I must told you the complete history behind this dua , it will take another few pages for me to complete. The summary, it was because this verse Nabi Ibrahim became significance until he was asked to be remembered in the last tahiyat. (tahiyat akhir).

Then we shared another prayer,

“ So [Solomon] smiled, amused at her speech, and said, "My Lord, enable me to be grateful for Your favor which You have bestowed upon me and upon my parents and to do righteousness of which You approve. And admit me by Your mercy into [the ranks of] Your righteous servants."

-Surah An NAML 27:19- 

The story of Nabi Sulaiman who has been entertained by the group of ant was so cute until he pray like that. This verse was close to this hadith:

Salman Al-Farisi reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Verily, Allah has one hundred portions of mercy. From one portion the creation has been given mercy between themselves and ninety nine portions are reserved for the Day of Resurrection.”

Source: Sahih Muslim 2753

I know this posting was supposed to be English but I am more comfortable sharing hadith and verse in malay since my demographic is Malay.

So the hadith translation:

Dalam hadith yang diriwayatkan oleh Muslim dan Salman Al-Farisi ra berkata, Rasulullah SAW bersabda: “Sesungguhnya Allah mempunyai rahmat 100, 1 di antaranya iaitu rahmat yang menjadikan makhluk itu sayang-menyayangi. Dan yang 99 nanti akan diturunkan pada hari kiamat”.

So now you know, no matter how deep our feeling toward our beloved person, nothing can be compared with Allah love. 

Your truly ,

-Musa Wannabe-

Usrah diaries : How to do usrah practically rather than theoritically ?

Wrote it on : 20 March 2018. Tuesday

Post it : 19 March 2018, Monday

Monday is my off day. So I am doing my usrah today with adik2.

First proper sitting in 2018 I think.

I got no Monday blues today since the first whatsapp  I read after wake up today is the announcement  of cancelling class.  I was like “YEAH, THAT’S IT”..and start to hope the 10 am class cancelled too. Haha. Human greed has no bound.

The usrah started with usual makan2. I was the chef of course. But today my friend want to treat me kindness so she add-on few curry puff. We are so blessed today Alhamdulillah.

The idea today is getting them Mutabaah amal calendar so I bring few coloured paper and pen so that they can draw it by themselves. I ask them to wrote up  5 least kindness that they can done every day on one side of the paper. then,  I ask them to draw 5 stroke on the calendar if they success in fulfilled it at the day. 

Looking at their list, its look like their capacity was better than me. I was also ask them to stroke their jahiliah that have done in the calendar.

After that,I gather around two ringgit per person after that and start heading out to speed-mart with them. Asking them to pick an item for sadaqah within the fund available.

We end up buy few soap and a bottle water.

You should think yourself what we done with that stuff. I am getting sleepy..

That’s all. Nite . zzz..

Your truly,

-The dorky kak Naqibah- 

Usrah diaries : Excuse me swimming pools.

Actual date  :  18 March 2018

Post it          :  20 March 2018, Tuesday, 1.05 am

Sunday was not that hectic but I can say it’s filled.  I start my day early for my usrah and we planned to swim in the morning at my naqibah resident pool. Today we got Yusra, cheeky little girl with US accent and her lovely mother Kak Ayuni to join us. Unfortunately, our plan was disrupted by strict pak cik guard who strolling over there because our dress code fail to fulfilled the requirement. Of course we are exactly in the list to be chased, are you thinking we will wear swim suit  going there?

We all agree resident pool should be less strict than hotel pool regulation but I don’t want to argue anymore.

There were no sharing for today and it was just a light meaningful meeting. My Naqibah treated me with ice cream-pancake.

Sorry look like i make you drool..haha...

Just to wish welcome to Rejab. I dont  know why  time flies so fast.

I still asking myself what contribution i have done for ummah and am i change for good.

Scrolling down Syed Azmi facebook yesterday and feel like loser to him. He done so much already.

Dear Allah who All Seeing, i do want Your special attention, but I am sorry i done nothing to make You notice me. 

Your Truly,

-We and our respective signature pose-  

Reintroducing my self 2018

13 March 2018, Tuesday

About me: 

- Still 23. Getting beautiful. Single.-

The short note should reflect my mission in this 2018. Ahakz.

    I am sorry because of this sudden posting since this blog has been dusty since last time I update it. Honestly my native language is malay, but when I am getting serious and reflecting I wrote English (for most of time). You might found a bit of manglish after this but please pardon me since my English was not really advanced. 

    I was re-branding this blog because it seems like so empty. The initial objective of founding this blog as a self-reminder to myself to guard my faith and record the moment I was hyped about Islam the most. It was also to share the knowledge for others.

But lately, I am getting lazy and dispirited. I rarely wrote since I was quite busy with my life. Just want to share , I was in the last semester in my investment degree, student in the day and part time in the night. A self-proclaim daie but still embarrassed to carry out the title since it was long ago since I sit with my “anak usrah”.

      Today, I have decided to reflect. I love writing and will share my thought even though the post will no longer sound like the post before which I thought really “skema” and religi. Is not because I found it boring, but because I thought dakwah also can be delivered in my experience and life sharing. I thought it can be more fun if i wrote it like diaries.

I am not perfect either. I eat, befriends, socialize and fall in love like normal person. I also sometime selfish, rock-head, grumpy and an ignorant person. But this is what reminded me this day.

    Rasulullah S.A.W said :

“Sesungguhnya orang yang paling berjaya ialah orang yang hari ini lebih baik daripada semalam dan orang yang gagal adalah orang yang hari ini lebih teruk daripada semalam, manakala orang yang terpedaya adalah orang yang hari ini sama dengan hari semalam”

  

(Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Sorry for the sudden Malay. I like to read the Hadith better in Malay.

Your truly,

- Aspiring wordsmith -